Hi, I’m Alex.
I’m just a girl trying to make it through highschool. I’m bisexual and have anxiety and emotional issues, though I’ve never been perfessionally diagnosed with anything. Some days are hard to get through. Some days I want to do things I shouldn’t. Some days are great. Some days its like the world is the best place to be.
I love music, playing it or listening to it. Music helps me cope with all the things going on in my life. It calms me down, soothes me, and makes me feel like I’m not alone.
I’ve been through a lot so I know how it feels to be scared, hurt, lonely, or like you’re not in control. I know what it’s like to struggle through each day not knowing if you can make it through to tomorrow.
When I was 9 years old my dad told me that he didn’t love my mom anymore and didnt want to be married to her. Since then my life has been a crazy ride. In grade 7 I switched schools to a school where I only knew 1 person. Through grade 7 and 8 I was called emo, a freak, weird, a loser, all kinds of things. I was in the worst place of my life. I didnt want to live. I have suffered with self-harm since then. I made and lost friends. Once I started high school I lost sight of who I was, but then again I hardly even knew who I was. I made huge mistakes and beat myself up for them. I have been called ugly and anorexic. I have been lied to, cheated on, and used. Everyday continues to be a struggle but I am determined to leave all the bad things I’ve been through behind and put myself first.
Things are getting better now and they will for you soon too. You just need to trust in yourself and know that everything happens for a reason. I am here for all my followers. If you ever need anything or someone to talk to please message me and I will do my best to help you. Or you can check out my page www.musichappinessandbeauty.tumblr.com/help if you need someone to talk to.
Please dont hesitate to ask.
I love you all. You are all beautiful.